INDIFFERENCE (as defined by “apathy demonstrated by an absence of emotional reactions”.

PEACE (as defined by “Something commonly fought for yet rarely achieved”, “The day when all religion is forgotten. Then there will be peace.”, “a failed philosophy”.

Common definitions of Peace:  Absence of anxiety and worry, inner calmness, trusting that God is bigger than your problems, faith that it’s all going to work out.

Or maybe Peace is:  Forgetting hard things, indifference to trials/attacks/difficulties, ignoring annoying people, shutting out the pain, pulling the covers up over your head, sticking your head in the sand, lacking passion, refusing to fight, looking past problems, sweeping the dirt under the rug.

I remember a scene in the movie “Far and Away” where Tom Cruise has been separated from the woman he fell in love with (Nicole Kidman).  He decided to work on the railroad in the Midwest.  When there were particularly dangerous jobs that needed to be done (using dynamite), the supervisor would call Joseph (Tom Cruise) and his response would be “Makes no difference to me” and then go blow something up and almost die.

He’d lost what was valuable to him and thus, didn’t care whether he lived or died. He wasn’t a courageous, faith-filled, purposeful warrior, out to make the world a better place. Really, he was a depressed, apathetic, grieving man who only looked like he didn’t have a worry in the world.  He was indifferent, not peaceful.

If I start to get anxious about something, start to worry about a situation that doesn’t look favorable, I am able to quickly calm myself down with, “Whatever, it doesn’t matter, I don’t care that much anyway”.

If Starbucks gets my drink wrong (which rarely happens), I decrease my stress by saying basically, “It’s not a big deal, I don’t really care one way or the other, it’s just coffee, I wasn’t expecting perfection, Life is full of let-downs/disappointments”.

I think we all get ideas of where we want to be in 5 years/10 years/20 years.  But what happens when we don’t reach that goal/dream by the 5 year/10 year/20 year mark? I can either say a) I’m a failure–didn’t reach the goal or b) I didn’t want it that bad, who needs ________? Those people that have that aren’t really all that happy, it’s overrated anyways” or c) God is in control, I am trusting him, I’m doing the best I can at the moment, maybe I need some fresh vision to get me to where I want to be.

If I find someone super annoying, I can fane kindness but only allowing myself a certain amount of time with that person and then sprinting for the other side of the room.  But is that kindness?  Is avoiding certain characters kindness?  (Well, yeah, hello…If I stayed one minute longer with them I would punch them in the face-I’m doing them a favor by fleeing and I am staying out of jail-something my mother is happy about).

Sometimes I wonder if these attributes, morals, characteristics we take so much pride in, are truly something to be proud of.

I could go on and on but for now, that’s as far as my revelation will take me.  But I’m going to study what Jesus said in the Bible.  For truly, peace and kindness are all about Him, from Him, through Him, and by Him.